Oh, how I miss you,
Oh, how I act,
I never really realized,
It was a bad impact,
On yourself
My moods are different,
My mind is not the same,
Why did I let you go?
Only myself to blame,
On yourself
Please oh please let this be done,
Please oh please let me smile,
Please oh please, let him say yes,
Let these 6 months be the whole trial,
Oh yourself,
On yourself,
On yourself
I'm hearing what I don't want to hear,
I'm hearing that I've lost,
Oh no, oh no,
To fix this, what would it cost?
On yourself
t happened so long ago,
Never thought it'd be this far,
All this time I suffered ago,
Deep down inside this filthy scar
And all I wish,
(and all I wish)
Is for some care,
(is for some care)
And I don't know,
(and I don't know)
Where this will go
I must be strong,
To keep you by my side,
I must be natural,
Yet keep my pride,
I am my hero,
For I've held in,
These are the words,
To my sad and darkened sin
I've felt sad,
But not any lonely,
I've got friends,
But pulling really coldly,
Sad it's the only truth,
Turth it's all in you
Trust in me,
Trust in I,
Trust in me,
Trust the midnight sky
And all I wish,
(and all I
There must be something wrong with me,
Everybody's yelling,
And pushing me to the bottom of the sea,
There's cement,
Pulling me down,
Oh no, oh no, they're making me drown
What's going on?
People in suits are hurting me,
Why so long?
I think it's killing me
I'm kicking and screaming,
But no one's here to hear me,
I'm whining and yelling,
But nobody's listening,
I'm waiting so desperately,
Does anyone care for me?
Get me out, mafia
I was all alone in my car,
Listening to hard rap,
Rapping and rapping,
All it is is crap,
I hear some beating,
Calling out my name
They say it's a jungle here,
No way that there's air to spar
Is it too hard to say I'm sorry?
Is it too hard to just be friends?
Is it too hard? Is it too hard?
Now if you don't care,
I'll slit my wrists and suffocate my air
No problmen since you don't really mind,
All my dignity and still being kind
Lost without my soul,
Without my calmness,
Without any control
Is it too hard to just tell me "I'm sorry"?
Is it too late to save my breath?
Is it too late? Is it too late?
Is it too late to answer my calls?
It's never to late to stop taking in,
You've taken, You've changed,
For the worse, I'd say
You've changed,
The better, the better I pray
Sickens me so much to lie,
No more lies, I try and try,
Trying gives me no more harm,
The harm I have to keep me warm
Filthy little love,
You've torn me apart,
Filthy little love,
I'm caught,
Filthy little love,
I'm definately bad,
My filthy little love song
Looking back at pictures,
I remember your name,
I think about those occasions,
Everything was so tame,
We were friends and all that,
Then suddenly changed,
I remember all that happened,
Our anger exchanged
Oh I miss all those moments,
All the laughter, all the jokes,
I know, I know, it all to well,
Nothing in that friendship was a hoax,
You never would have left me,
Not even for a ho,
You were very very close to me,
You acted as a bro
You don't know how much I miss you,
At glances I want to cry,
At times like this when we aren't friends,
Yes, I've wanted to die,
You mean so much to me,
Even if you hate me so,
But the pas
I bleed with my sickness,
My heart cannot mend,
I don't know what to do,
For I cannot pretend
My sorrow has gotten deeper,
My legs have grown weak,
Everytime I speak of you,
Everytime I weep
Mourning like your death has come,
You're gone to me like the morning sun,
In the black of night of wich we speak,
The moon is bright and takes it's peak
No one's here,
no one cares,
no matter how swollen of sorrow,
or deep within my vanes,
everything's changed,
everything's different,
pondering and wondering,
everything's changed
I sound desperate,
I really do sound,
but think about it hard,
would you want to be drowned,
in a pool full of memories,
that are scarred?
will anyone love me?
I've lived a hard life,
bound for luck,
found none yet,
I was struck,
I found you,
oh yes you,
the little one,
my little one,
but you never were done
You hugged me,
you loved me,
or so-called yet did,
I never found anyone,
as caring as this kid,
now I know,
that the past has past,
Two Keys...
One belongs to you...
The other belongs to me...
Opens our minds to memories,
memories have passed,
so have we,
we're long gone,
connection is dead,
and so are we,
we have nothing to say,
nothing to see
For all those times passed,
everything is kept,
wether it's a card,
a picture,
or just some words,
we all remember,
we all respect
So very often,
I think of them so,
even with a grudge,
that we don't show,
so answer these questions,
answer them well,
because what's left of me,
is a little bit of hell
When I'm Gone
How can this happen?
You fucking piece of trash,
You came and told me no,
And everyone lays down my ash
The nights have been hard,
My personality has changed,
You will regret,
This little exchange
I hope you're sorry,
I hope I stay,
No matter what I do,
You will pay
Sorrow leaks all throughout your "land",
Hoping they'll find me,
My shadow is not hidden,
For you made me flee
My dreams are not shatter,
For they will never be,
The only thing inside of me,
Will never be free
All my opertunities,
All of my only chances,
Gone forever, there to stay,
And no more sudden glances
I'll miss you all,
Hopefully I w
Coldness inside,
Wispering your name,
Coldness inside,
Wishing all the pain away
Darkness comes,
All within my skin,
Darkness creeps,
All within my soul it's been-
A long day now,
Long week, oh how?
Damp and reformed,
Without a breath
Sulking won't come,
No matter how hard I try,
Sulking won't sound,
Not in the withered sky
Longing comes again,
Hoping won't be bound,
Longing comes around,
Hoping won't found
A long day now,
Long week, oh how?
Damp and reformed,
Without a breath
I feel different,
Was it ment to be?
Maybe it was,
Maybe so,
Am I free?
It's all within time,
It's all within love,
Maybe it was my wealth,
Helping you to your start,
Maybe it was stealth
Caring is greatfulness,
A sin is forgiven,
For I am over it,
You aren't unforgiven
No matter how much hate,
Or how much love,
I'll cherish the memories,
and all the fun
You were great,
I admit you were,
But still it's passed,
And part of it's a blur
I guess I miss you,
I guess I do,
No matter what,
I won't forget you
We're just friends now,
As you can see,
Just stay as you were,
And be as true as you can be
I may have different
Hello, hello, hell,
I came to you today,
Fire within my soul,
Is what made me come that way,
Hello, hello, hell,
Give me one last breath,
Let my anger out,
All before my death
Look inside my brain,
And tell me what you see,
Is it someone else?
Or is it really me?
Call out to my friends,
They know me very well,
Ask them deep, deep secretse,
And they will never tell
Tell me what this love is,
I don't think I'll ever know,
Is it a deep feeling?
Or is it a fucking joke?
Yes I'm getting harsh,
I want my answers now,
I really am demanding,
So I will not vow
My promise isn't stable,
According to your thoughts,
I wish for yo
WHAT HAPPENED TO THE BOY I USED TO KNOW?
We were so close, I don't remember too much,
You were my friend, you were my pal,
We were close, and I was your gal, but now,
What happened to us?
You were my friend, you were my pride,
you were always there, right by my side,
I was alone, no one cared,
I'd cry all night, with tears in my eyes, but you,
called to see if I was left as one
We used to laugh, we used to hug,
no matter where, beneath the sun,
never alone, to never there,
I miss your tender loving care
You were my friend, you were my pride,
you were always there, right by my side,
I was alone, no one cared,
I'd cry all night
You're one phone call away,
you're one more passing by,
you're one more sleeping through at night,
without a wink in sight,
you make me feel ok,
make me feel alright,
you met me after day and day,
and one more passing by
And that's the story,
about a little girl,
who makes you listen,
to every word she says,
and now she's asking,
for you to play along,
and now you're wondering,
on how she gets by and by
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Well, I think I've improved in my photography over the years. You tell me. A few photographs of those in San Francisco and of San Mateo or San Bruno now? I say so. I guess anyone with eyes could realize it. You be the judge.
So, as of right now, I'm officially bored. I'm dying to go and watch Cry_Wolf, but I have no ride whatsoever to the theater. I'm guessing no one wants to go because they all want to see that Tim Burton movie. Tim Burton is...argh. I don't know why, I just don't like his films. His (probably) most famous film was what? Night Before Christmas? Yeah, well, to me, I've seen better. *Gumby* Anyway...:XD::#1: haha...um, anyway
As you do not know, it has been 6th months since me and my best friend have split. It hurts to know that. I just want them back, I mean...I've tried my hardest to fix everything, but it's hard to try and fix everything when you hardly talk to the person, and if you do, it's just a simple hello. Sounds complex...well...it is...and...yeah...just hurts to know that I may not have him back...I remember all of these memories...it was so perfect back then. Everyone was happy...
It all started when one of my other friends got expelled from the school...they helped us so much....and everything's just gone downhill from there. It's hard, I can't rea
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